What a Year for a New Year

Isn't New Year the time to reflect on what happened during the year? To make resolutions? I'm choosing none of the above. First of all, I reflect daily on what's gone on in my life, so I feel no need to do it all the time Second of all, I don't like making resolutions because I tend to immediately break them. However, this year may be an exception. I am going to pay off my court fines, and that is some sort of resolve, right? Also I really want to visit Costa Rica & Israel next year so I'm going to try to save up some $$$ flow. Two of my closest friends live in those countries and it gives me an excuse to get out the USA, which I've never done before, right? So might as well start now.

Oh the new year.... what a year for a new year indeed... that song keeps plugging through my head. It's been not the best year to say the least. Quitting school, Turning the big 3-0, My first encounter with the law/jail cells/, My first experience with a close family member dying.... On the plus side, there's been some good, such as, quitting school, turning 30, moving out, being close to family. The circumstances that brought us together are not the best, not ideal, but I'm glad we're all closer now, even though we're physically far apart.

I miss dad, don't we all, and I know the pain WILL lessen in time, maybe the new year will be part of that. It doesn't seem quite real yet that he's gone. I just keep expecting him to show up, like maybe he's on some LONG vacation somewhere. My logical mind knows this is not right, and of course he's dead, but my emotional mind tells me otherwise. It's whacky.

So as the new year approaches, I hope you all can make resolves you will or won't keep, sleep well, be peaceful, be happy, and save money. Don't worry, I'll be there to help!