I've been trying to get on a path to get my headmeds straightened out because I'm feeling meh and angry all the time, SOOOOOOOOO........ then this happens because it's the way it goes, right?
.......... this night is when my 4 year old decides to throw a huge fucking tantrum for like 30 minutes straight, and still going, because she said her leg was itchy, and I offered to scratch it, she said no, then I offered to put lotion on it, she said no. So, I ignored it. Thinking like, "whatever, it will go away." Then every 5 seconds she just freaked out going, "IT ITCHES!!!" I'm like, "What can I do to help you?" She's like" something ELSE!!!" then just begins whining incessantly without using her words (which we've been working on this reverting into baby bullshit) and I told her I could itch it or put lotion on it or something else but she just needs to tell me what she wants. She continued to whine. So, then I told her she gets to go to a time out if she cannot use her words to tell me what she needs rather than making whining noises. She did not. For 5 minutes. So she's in time out fucking screaming her face off. Sometimes I really hate parenting, it's the ugly truth. UGH.
I'm so fucking over not knowing what to do. I'm over feeling jealous of other kids who just normally speak to their parents and don't act out. I don't feel like I'm doing anything wrong, but what are the OTHER parents doing that I'm not???? Fuck.
