It recently started with a Halloween road trip whim. Although, technically it was starting before that and it involved a whole bunch of vomiting sparrows and a desert. To get from dry land to rainy town has been a trip indeed. Where, exactly, are you talking about Erika? You might be asking yourself... The story goes like this:
Right this second I'm in Seattle. Yes, Seattle. In a house in a town which I will soon call my home. After I had the lame day at work I got "suspended" from my job for 7 days. Totally stupid, right? So I decided to take my new love on his word that it is really OK to come up north. I hopped on a plane to Seattle on New Year's Eve. Today, my old boss called me and said "When do you want to come in and talk" and I said "well I'm in Seattle." She told me "Ok you quit. goodbye." and hung up. So it's official, I have quit my job in Klamath Falls.
I don't have any money. I don't have a solid plan other than just looking really hard for a job. I am a normally very structured person and this is hard for me to just let the universe toss me about. But it's too hard to fight the obvious right now. And obviously I need to be here. Some things I do have which amaze me are a really good man (no, he's more than really good he's the best), mental support from afar among all of my friends, good intentions, a new friend here already with whom I have a girl date tomorrow, and love love love.
This has been a huge risk, I think it is one of the biggest risks I've taken in my life so far. But it's either sink or swim, they say, and so I choose to swim. I think it had to be such an abrupt choice and such a huge risk for me to actually follow through with my life.
I feel really overwhelmed at how much support I feel right now, how I know that so many people are sending me good vibes and I don't know how to pay those back other than with good thoughts of you all.
Without this amazing man who is so giving of himself, I know this whole thing would not be possible. I could not exist here without him right now. So thankful.
It's 2010. A whole new decade. A whole new love. A whole new everything. And I couldn't be happier right now. I don't really make new year's resolutions, or goals, or anything like that, but I think this year I will resolve to myself to strive to be less afraid. To be aware of the world around me and to stop fighting against it. Here goes my new life. Cheers!!
