A note to my brother Craig

Craig,
How I love you. I can't believe I won't have you there at your own funeral to be a jackass with, I sincerely hope that you are looking down and laughing your ass off.... :) I miss you. This is hard. So hard. What to do without the one and only Kreg around? I've never felt so much sorrow in my entire life as I have when I found out you were no longer of this world. The only good feeling I have is that now you're with dad and you guys are chillin' waiting for us to get with you. I don't want this to happen. I don't like it at all. I'm so glad for the opportunity I had to get to know you at dad's funeral, and the chance you got to know me. I'm so thankful for our last conversation, the 5 minutes on the phone a few weeks ago. You just simply called to tell me you love me and you are proud. I hope as I live my life from now on, I continue to make you (and dad) proud. My brother, my friend, my life.... I love you. Always,
Your baby sister,
Erika

The Fool

The Fool card affirms that my alter ego today is a Quantam Leaper with a hero's heart. My superpower is liberated by free will and trust, which lead me to explore simple speculations for their own sake. I can move beyond the fear factor. I don't know where I'm going, and I don't care where I've been. I only know that, as the hero of my own story, it's for me to find out. For, like Alice, I'm on the verge of stepping into a rabbit hole; unless I stop short and play it safe, I'll know soon enough where following my own feet has landed me on this curious venture. The blissful frailty of unwritten conclusions and unguarded access sweetens the desire. So despite familiar warnings, irresistible promise draws my eyes wide open and away from domestic comfort zones, with only certain inquiry, hope and faith to recommend my course. I'll never know until I try.