The Flip Side

So, as a kind-of flip side to my last post about being depressed, I will post something else now. Yeah, it's true I've been known to be sad pretty much forever. But when I try to think of the good things I get overwhelmed with happiness which is good. In the mood of trying to stay positive, here are some things which have recently made me happy.

My kids and mom came to visit over the weekend. We all went to the aquarium, with my brother, Lee's sister, and Lee's mom, and it was a fun family outing. I love my kids, and I miss them terribly (part of the depression creeping in) but I need to really take hold of the times I DO get to spend with them and be happy that I am allowed to be a part of their existence.

Last week I went out twice with friends, to drink, both nights were fun for me. This group of people is extremely giving and kind and including of their lives & habits. Thankful for such friends. Beginnings of friendships are fun times for me.

I have a really awesome support of online friends. I know it is cheesy, but truly my online buddies have made me get through the days in a much better fashion. Brought laughter to my sadness. Have listened to me vent through all the bullshit. Have let me stay the night at their houses & feed me cocktails & held me while I cried. I am thankful for all of you.

I am above all thankful for the supportive partner I have found in Lee. A really great boyfriend. A great lover. A great giver of self. He is, as I like to say, a really good human. Sometimes, like all other couples, we have moments of doubts (NIGHTS of doubt even) but unlike other people in my life, he is always willing to work through it. He doesn't see disagreement as an end, even when I might be viewing it as such. I am learning to view things through his eyes. And to his credit, he is learning to view things through mine.... which is brand new to him. Never before have I felt such an overwhelming sense of love.

To summarize, while yes, I am quite sad, there is always a happy part through the sadness. And I know that with time the happiness will prevail and all will be well with the world.